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Sat, 07 Jun 2008 15:46:07 GMT

I'm new. I have been on livejournal for a while but decided to scrap my old account, as it was doing me more damage than good. I need to destroy my eating disorder rather than help promote it. This is a new account for a new start.

I have bulimia and I'm trying to get away from it, but am finding it very very hard, and so am looking for support.

I currently live abroad, illegally, so therefore have no health insurance and so I'm trying, and failing, to help myself rather than going to get help professionally. But I'm finding it difficult to commit to any sort of healthy eating. At the moment I'm trying to just eat what I want, when I want, but I'm still binging and still being struck with an urge to purge after eating, especially if I binge. I've been pretty good at stopping myself half way through purges, but need to not even get as far as the toilet.

If anyone has successfully gotten into healthy eating and shed themselves of the binge/purge plague please, I'll except any advice.

When I go back to the UK in July I plan to go see my doctor and hopefully can get proper help, but I can't wait till then, even if it's only 4 weeks away. I need to get rid of this now, I hate every moment of it.

advice and support is welcome.

pasbelle

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